simple love

I want to be:

a person who loves and gives without expectations, hoping to inspire and encourage. 

Really thankful, for the short but open conversation. Thank you..

Peds lecture exam tomorrow. Ah. Gotta get things together. Let’s goo.

growing pains..

I wish to be more mature, wise and understanding. To be able to be resilient… Be able to swallow sorrow or pain, to be able to recognize there’s another side to the story, to be able to be okay not always being heard or noticed or understood, to see myself before my Lord and realize my place of being a wretched sinner and I have nothing to say before God who deals with me, sees me for who I am, continues to love me and never gives up on me even though I will never ever realize, notice or fully understand how much it took for Jesus to take on my sin. I won’t ever fully know, but God does not cease to show His grace and love. Who am I to say otherwise? To stay hardened in my ways and to feel I got shortchanged? Nonsense. Before God, I am utterly humbled.

I’m really broken…
But, God gives me hope. How is it possible, that God loves me, loves me so much to send His only son to die on the cross for my sins? But I am so undeserving, and I am so unworthy of such grace. Is there hope in distress, brokenness and sin? Can death overcome these? If I die would that be enough? No. I’m so weak. How could this be that God would love me? I am such a sinner, completely broken and lost. But God He comforts me. He reigned victorious over sin and death itself.
Wow… Don’t give up this fight because the victory is won. Jesus He said, “it is finished.”
I just want to be with God forever.

what it feels to feel really uncomfortable. #stress 

things never stay under the rug. and when it resurfaces, it’s ugly. #retraction. 

I’m really happy to be home. :)

this is how i feel: I realize, going through penn is the most challenging road i have ever taken in my life thus far… just an on-going struggle.. wishing i would have it easy, not feel like im frantically running on the treadmill gasping for breath, fearing im going to fall off any second kind of experience.. the thought of why can´t I just leisurely go on the elliptical? ah struggles of penn, nursing, deadlines, my own anxieties, insecurities and everything in between. 

Reminded to find joy of Christ in all that I do and commit to! With joy, there is no need to recognition or sense of burden, because it comes from genuine desire. “The bride (church) belongs to the bridegroom (Christ). The friend who attends the bridegroom waits and listens for him, and is fully of joy when he hears the bridegroom’s voice. That joy is mine, and it is now complete.” John 3:29

“Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands.” (Psalm 63:3, 4 NIV)
Love this..

“For I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in obedience to him, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the Lord your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess.”
(Deuteronomy 30:16 NIV)

Really thinking about the role of man and woman

“But I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.” (1 Corinthians 11:3 NIV)

“A man ought not to cover his head, since he is the image and glory of God; but woman is the glory of man. For man did not come from woman, but woman from man; neither was man created for woman, but woman for man. It is for this reason that a woman ought to have authority over her own head, because of the angels. Nevertheless, in the Lord woman is not independent of man, nor is man independent of woman. For as woman came from man, so also man is born of woman. But everything comes from God.” (1 Corinthians 11:7-12 NIV)

“The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.” Amen. - Psalm 23
From my QT 10/9/2009 first semester at Penn.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.” (James 1:2-8 NIV)